A Need for Nappies

So January is nearly, nearly over and the last couple of weeks have probably been the best I have felt in about 6 months. I decided that this year I WAS going to have another go, one way or another we would fund it and I was going to be ready, mentally and physically. I was not sure how to go about this, but somehow I seem to have found my way and I am doing OK. I love a notebook, so with a beautiful new note book in front of me, with the prettiest cover, made for me by the wonderful 'Love Muffin' (she chose that blog name clearly not knowing me well enough that I would use it) I started investigating and planning. I decided to look at what I could do to prepare me, knowing what I know from round one, and soon I was writing down vitamins recommended, pills of loveliness that would make my eggs stronger and in just planning I started to feel my head clear and some calm come back into my life.  The one issue I felt that was stressing me out and causing me so much concern wa

Its been a while, and I am in the need of writing. Its been a few weeks of wonder and woe, but one thing I have taken from this past few week is that I am not OK, but I am better and I have found myself in a long time. I have planted my tiny feet perfectly back into my happy shoes and I am in my miserable pants less and less. This is a good step. A step that I thought, just a few weeks ago would be so far out of my reach that I would never feel my complete self again. But Thanks to my wonderful support group of a great Beard and a select close friends, I am now laughing more than I am crying, not losing my shit and trivial things, OK I may still do that sometimes, but I am working again, and not freaking out in crowds. So having started to realise that I am in my happy place more often than not, I have started to be really productive in the IVF round 2 planning, now nothing can happen till we reach our target of funds, currently not too far off, but with hard work, the wonder